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*stares at the gravel and drops to his knees* " fuck my life."

"Besides he's always been the mature one and the one to think things through.. and he knows if I found out he did that.. sheesh I dont think I could handle that much stress"

*calls lexi* " hey I'm gonna be back in a few days.....baby I gotta cool down....I don't want anything stupid to happen. I love you." *hangs up the phone and jumps back in his car and keeps driving*

" am I like the worst brother ever? I drove him away like always. "

"I don't know.. ugh honestly I don't know which I want to do more.. slap the shit out of you or tell you to hold me"

*goes and drags out lexi* " hold her wench."

"Dumb ass it's not the same thing.. If I want anyone to hold me it's you..." *hugs him and starts crying into his chest* "Why does it have to be so damn difficult"

"because I'm an idiot.....I don't know how to control myself but the last thing I need is to see you cry......to make you feel like I am just the biggest asshole...I'm not good with words like mason....but I can tell them in songs.....please baby don't cry." *pushes back her hair and kisses the top of her head*

"Well what the hell else do you expect me to do... That's my best friend that just left damn it.. you him Lex dom and the little evils are the only fucking people in the world that matter to me. I can't loose you.. any of you... Masons the only one I can talk to about things.. we talked about quite abit earlier that had him already stressed out.. so much that I've never told anyone else.."

" Mason loves you more than me....because I treated him like shit his whole life......mom and dad tried to be good parents to him....yet the only one he really wanted to count on was me....and I walked away or hit him or just said fuck you . thats the kind of person i am.....until you came along."

"You two are both constantly telling me to let the past go.. why the hell can't you.. he needs to quite being hostile and you need to quit picking on him.. I hate you both.. but I love you both more... and we need to talk too.. because all the things mason and me talked about you have a right to know about.. because even though you may love me.. I'm not the same kid you fell in love with.. the only thing me and him have in common is our past.. I'm a completly different person now and you need to know just how much"

" fine go on and tell me."

"considering not all of it's legal I suggest we talk inside.."

" who cares about legality.....I was in jail and almost got raped...don't talk to me about legal shit."

"Yeah but I havent gotten caught and I dont intend on making an open confession.. it wasnt that I didnt want to tell you because its not legal I just don't want people listening in"

" thats alright i guess..but since its confessionals let me get the priest outfit."

"this is not the time for jokes..let's just hope you didnt love me cause I was innocent cause I'm about to ruin the innocence factor for you"

" innocent? pfff......I don't date the innocent."

"haha well I was pretty innocent at 15 darling..even more so before i was 13.. and you were already kissing me by then but anyway we were supposed to be being serious here"

" serious smerious.....no one really cares..but spiel now."

"I mean it's not that bad compared to the trouble you get yourself into but its still.. Lets see you already know but my ahem artistic habits.. then lets see theres destruction of public property.. dont ask school was boring that day.. and arson.. i burnt down mom and dads old house.. after they moved of course.. and then theres the one murder.. Yeah Mason had to get the body away from me then.. dead or not I was still going to kick his ass.. I dont think I even realized he was dead already. vampires shouldnt die that easy.. but I think you'd like the reason on that.. he was teasing me about you leaving me behind so I lost it.."

*taps his foot* " so you killed one person? how did you do it? was it brutal......describe it." *eyes light up*

"It wasn;t as bad as it could've been.. like I said I lost it.. it was pretty much just a merciless beating until he just died.. no torture or anything.. and honestly if you're going to get excited have a better reason for it.. something more like this" *Kisses him and runs her fingers through his hair*

*grins* " damn I'm one lucky little bitch."

"why because I can't keep my hands off of you or cause I'd murder someone over you.. Well mason always told me I needed to find a way to balance out the good and bad so I don't get so depressed and can you honestly think of a better way to cheer someone up"